Internally, I'm one extremely disorganized person.
I'm that girl who is always dashing out of the house in the mornings at the last possible second in an effort to make it to work on time.
I'm a HUGE, HUGE procrastinator. I procrastinate on EVERYTHING including going to bed, and waking up. (Snooze button, anyone?). Infact I think the only reason why I pay my rent/bills on time is to avoid eviction/a bad credit score 'else I'm sure those ones kwa would suffer from my procrastination.
Let me give you some instances...
- I procrastinated on renewing the registration for my car, until I got a warning while my car was parked. A cop had driven by and noticed my expired tags.
- As we speak, my library books are overdue. I procrastinated on calling in to renew them.
- I procrastinated on getting my car tested for emissions till I got a notice from the MVA threatening to suspend my registration.
- I was always the kid in college who pulled all nighters doing homework/studying for exams that I should have started studying for weeks ago.
- I even procrastinate on reading blogs and responding to comments...
I procrastinate on responding to emails, FB messages and returning calls. This in turn gives people the impression that I'm bad at keeping in touch, when that isn't the case. I'm usually just trying to catch up with the rest of my everything in my life that I am behind on. I spent the Easter weekend with family and as soon as I walked into my Aunt's house, everyone jumped on me with the accusation:- 'You don't call/You never return calls'.
*Sigh*, sometimes I think that I just need a break from my reality.
However, on a lighter note I decided that I didn't wanna turn into those people who claim 'I'm so busy' and never call people back so I have been trying to make quick calls while I'm doing things like driving home from work...(although, I'd ideally love to have time to THINK and just take a mental break from work and alladat.)
Another factor that adds to my internal disorganization is my schedule. I work about 9-10 hours a day, so if I get into work at say 9, I work till about 6:30-7:00. Then I head to the gym (This is something that i do almost religiously) and work out for 1-1.5 hours, so as you can see I'm back home at around 9, sometimes 9:30. Franky speaking, getting home at 9:30 I just wanna relax and not have to bother with trying to communicate with folk or working on projects. I just wanna leave everything till the weekend.
The bad thing about leaving everything till the weekend is that, most weekends I'm out of town. (Always looking for a break, aint I?)...and so all the stuff that I left till the weekend gets put off till the next weekend.
You get my drift...
My internal disorganization is constantly a source of stress for me. I mean, really...life shouldn't be this stressful na. I blame myself maaaan but it's like no matter what I do in an effort to change, it just never seems to work.
I've tried everything ooo. I've tried the owning a daily planner thing...infact my friend was kind enough to give me one which I am currently trying to keep up with. The thing be say, I hella be forgetting to even update the planner sef.
I have google calender. Can't remember the last time I put any reminders in it.
I have outlook, same thing.
I've tried laying out my clothes the morning before work, so that I can speed things up. That didn't work out too well.
I've tried waking up early so that I can get an earlier start on my day, and be home earlier but I'm really not a morning person and like I mentioned, I procrastinate on going to bed hence me constantly hitting the sheets around 12:30-1:00 am.
I know everything that I need to do in order to manage my time better, but ask me...do I do it?
I need a friggin' intervention or a personal assistant who will remind me of the things that i gotta do.
Lately I've been feeling stressed out and overwhelmed again, hence me sharing with you my blogfam. (Now my God-sis, Ms. Sula can't say that I never talk about myself :-p)
On a slightly funny note, I knew that things had gotten BAD when one day I logged onto my favorite celeb gossip website---> Theybf.com and realized that I had 8 pages to catch up on. 8 pages??!???! *gasp*, the YBF is supposed to be something like my bible. I be checking up on it daily...
Or when people say 'Oh this and that happened on Facebook' and I'm like 'errrr, I be forgetting to even log onto the Facebook sef"
I feel stressed but I gotta make an effort to try to tackle this head on, let me make a list of what needs to be done.
Thanks for reading, if you did.
And if I'm slow with making the rounds, forgive me...I will do that when I get a grip. I see my blogroll is updated again, YAY. It seemed like post-Easter everyone was chilling.