I want my life back...

If you know me, you will know that I am CONSTANTLY crying about my state of internal disorganization. If you check the dictionary for the word 'Procrastinator', you will see my picture beside it.
I blogged about my constant state of organized chaos a while back and I got some good suggestions on how to change things but did I implement any of them? Nope.

I know the solutions, I've been told a million times but the process of actually hopping into bed and attempting to catch 8 hours of sleep, drinking my required 8 glasses of H2O and eating healthy, nutritious meals and mastering the art of effective time management is much harder than you think.
I actually envy people who appear to have it together and everyday I wish that I was more organized.

Well, that has to change sooner than later.

I mean...I had to take a step back and analyze the situation well well and ask myself a couple of questions.

-Why do I get these frequent headaches? Duhhh, 'cos I only get about 6 hours of sleep max + bad nutrition.
-Why did I go back to square one after all my hard work from gyming earlier on this year paid off? Because I haven't bought groceries in Lord knows how long and when a girl can't even gather enough time to cook some nice home cooked meals, and the typical breakfasts, lunches and dinners consist of take out, fast foods and a whole bunch of processed unhealthy ish...how won't it start to reflect on my body and my skin? Not to mention my wallet...
-Why do I need a SKINTERVENTION asap? Once again, duhhhh. The poor nutrition + lack of enough sleep + I can't remember the last time I drank water.
-Why can't I schedule time to get this oil change done? I mean, I could do it on a Saturday but I'm too busy catching up on all the sleep that I've been missing out on during the week days.
-Why do I feel so tired and unmotivated during the day? Back to the sleep thing. I mean, how do celebrities do it? What the heck do I be doing up at 2am in the morning sef? It's not as if I'm even doing love talk and slow jams with a man sef. Mchewwww...
-Why do I constantly feel so stressed out? Lack of effective time management!
-Why are my relatives mad at me for not keeping in touch like I should? It all ties back to the time management thing + the constant feeling of stress. Every chance to enjoy some 'me time' is treasured and lately I've been screening a bunch of calls like whoa and then I procrastinate on calling them back...Gosh, I have 12 voicemails to check. Who procrastinates on checking their voice mail?

These are just a few of the questions that I asked myself.

What can I do to implement some kind of change?
1. I can limit my internet usage. I spend way too much of my personal time on the internet...on these chat things, constantly checking emails, reading blogs, commenting on blogs...the whole 9 yards. I could be doing other things like reading more books, watching more TV, studying for the GMAT as I've belatedly decided to go the grad school route (so that my bride price can be higher *winks*), sleeping and even getting around to checking those voice mails and returning those calls.
2. I can create a to-do list and 'tackle plan'.
3. I can modify my lifestyle i.e switch up my work hours a bit so that I go in earlier, get home earlier and have more time to my self (thankfully, we are blessed with the flex. work schedule at the J-O-B), attempt to get more sleep and generally live a better and more efficient lifestyle.

Just a few solutions which I intend to implement. Wish me luck!

And on that note, my current job assignment location limits access to all the 'fun' websites i.e Blogger, Facebook and such things so unfortunately, I'm unable to check out this site for a good chunk of that day and frankly speaking, after work/post work commitments I'm just too tired to even attempt to make rounds. Please no vex o...I still love you guys, and I will drop by whenever I can. Na me and una for this side of the internet oooo. :-D

P.S:- ProudPrick, whoever you are...dude, you are HEELARIOUS. Ha Ha Ha!

Make I sha waka ooo. Till we jam again nah!

G'nite.

Organized Chaos

A lot of people who have gotten a chance to peep my personal space always comment on how organized I seem to be. One of my friends even went as far as to claim that I can be anal. I agree...externally, everything has to be in place, spic and span.

Internally, I'm one extremely disorganized person.
I'm that girl who is always dashing out of the house in the mornings at the last possible second in an effort to make it to work on time.

I'm a HUGE, HUGE procrastinator. I procrastinate on EVERYTHING including going to bed, and waking up. (Snooze button, anyone?). Infact I think the only reason why I pay my rent/bills on time is to avoid eviction/a bad credit score 'else I'm sure those ones kwa would suffer from my procrastination.
Let me give you some instances...

• I procrastinated on renewing the registration for my car, until I got a warning while my car was parked. A cop had driven by and noticed my expired tags.
• As we speak, my library books are overdue. I procrastinated on calling in to renew them.
• I procrastinated on getting my car tested for emissions till I got a notice from the MVA threatening to suspend my registration.
• I was always the kid in college who pulled all nighters doing homework/studying for exams that I should have started studying for weeks ago.
  
• I even procrastinate on reading blogs and responding to comments...

I know, I know. I'm just terrible with this.

I procrastinate on responding to emails, FB messages and returning calls. This in turn gives people the impression that I'm bad at keeping in touch, when that isn't the case. I'm usually just trying to catch up with the rest of my everything in my life that I am behind on. I spent the Easter weekend with family and as soon as I walked into my Aunt's house, everyone jumped on me with the accusation:- 'You don't call/You never return calls'.
*Sigh*, sometimes I think that I just need a break from my reality.
However, on a lighter note I decided that I didn't wanna turn into those people who claim 'I'm so busy' and never call people back so I have been trying to make quick calls while I'm doing things like driving home from work...(although, I'd ideally love to have time to THINK and just take a mental break from work and alladat.)

Another factor that adds to my internal disorganization is my schedule. I work about 9-10 hours a day, so if I get into work at say 9, I work till about 6:30-7:00. Then I head to the gym (This is something that i do almost religiously) and work out for 1-1.5 hours, so as you can see I'm back home at around 9, sometimes 9:30. Franky speaking, getting home at 9:30 I just wanna relax and not have to bother with trying to communicate with folk or working on projects. I just wanna leave everything till the weekend.
The bad thing about leaving everything till the weekend is that, most weekends I'm out of town. (Always looking for a break, aint I?)...and so all the stuff that I left till the weekend gets put off till the next weekend.
You get my drift...

My internal disorganization is constantly a source of stress for me. I mean, really...life shouldn't be this stressful na. I blame myself maaaan but it's like no matter what I do in an effort to change, it just never seems to work.

I've tried everything ooo. I've tried the owning a daily planner thing...infact my friend was kind enough to give me one which I am currently trying to keep up with. The thing be say, I hella be forgetting to even update the planner sef.
I have google calender. Can't remember the last time I put any reminders in it.
I have outlook, same thing.
I've tried laying out my clothes the morning before work, so that I can speed things up. That didn't work out too well.
I've tried waking up early so that I can get an earlier start on my day, and be home earlier but I'm really not a morning person and like I mentioned, I procrastinate on going to bed hence me constantly hitting the sheets around 12:30-1:00 am.
I know everything that I need to do in order to manage my time better, but ask me...do I do it?

I need a friggin' intervention or a personal assistant who will remind me of the things that i gotta do.

*Sigh*

Lately I've been feeling stressed out and overwhelmed again, hence me sharing with you my blogfam. (Now my God-sis, Ms. Sula can't say that I never talk about myself :-p)

On a slightly funny note, I knew that things had gotten BAD when one day I logged onto my favorite celeb gossip website---> Theybf.com and realized that I had 8 pages to catch up on. 8 pages??!???! *gasp*, the YBF is supposed to be something like my bible. I be checking up on it daily...
Or when people say 'Oh this and that happened on Facebook' and I'm like 'errrr, I be forgetting to even log onto the Facebook sef"

*Sigh*

I feel stressed but I gotta make an effort to try to tackle this head on, let me make a list of what needs to be done.

Thanks for reading, if you did.
And if I'm slow with making the rounds, forgive me...I will do that when I get a grip. I see my blogroll is updated again, YAY. It seemed like post-Easter everyone was chilling.

Bye.